Some of you may have noticed I've been posting a little off lately, and some of you probably don't give a shit (rightly so). I've just been so f*cking mad, so angry at what feels like nothing. I'm just mad. Mad at the world. Mad at myself. Mad at others who try to get close to me.

I don't know why, but I don't want to be this way anymore. I don't have a proper outlet, and I feel like my back is against the ropes all the time. I feel so f*cking beaten, I feel so lost. I have nothing going for me, nothing to be optimistic about except being alive.

I'm at a war with myself, and I'm losing. Everything is turning on me. I don't like it. I don't want it. I just want it all to stop.

Some of you may have noticed I've been posting a little off lately, and some of you probably don't give a shit (rightly so). I've just been so f*cking mad, so angry at what feels like nothing. I'm just mad. Mad at the world. Mad at myself. Mad at others who try to get close to me.

I don't know why, but I don't want to be this way anymore. I don't have a proper outlet, and I feel like my back is against the ropes all the time. I feel so f*cking beaten, I feel so lost. I have nothing going for me, nothing to be optimistic about except being alive.

I'm at a war with myself, and I'm losing. Everything is turning on me. I don't like it. I don't want it. I just want it all to stop.

Question it all yet too many questions can lead back to questioning
What you questioned for the quest was to question everything
But not to get lost inside the questions of a mystery where you
Really wanted Love yet you get lost inside a Rubik cube of
Turning each side to come to the conclusion why puzzle your
Mind for it goes nowhere except into a crazy rambling tundra
Where you become Antarctica which no one wants to inhabit
But you can undo what you've done because the journey
You travel you believed in your heart your soul was to learn
That the puzzle of life was not to make it complex but
Be simple to not want everything but to need something
That is so simple that when you look in the mirror you
Go why did you have to journey through all the mazes
Of illusions to get to a conclusion of understanding
The simple answers are right in front of your face
Yet you learned allot while emptying your pockets
Of everything inside your mind but now you go
Okay I had enough let me live life let the love an the sound
Of the light shine back into the nobody that had no home
To be at home again to just be in the background to
Enjoy it all an travel with a woman to make love on
A beach an twirl around in ecstasy of becoming a real
person and just enjoy the gift of the source which
Flows in an out to just be out of a limelight to dance
An waltz with a woman in the pale full moonlight
To go yes this is what I want this is what I need
This is what we all want to not flurry away with
Random punches of digging too deep
We just need that Love to breach our souls
Forever an ever for the rambling nobody wants
Simple Life Simple Love Simple Light and a Simple Sound
That vibrates his heart to her vessel her mind to just
Go yes universe this is what I really want out of life
To be a husband a wife with no contracts just contracting
Of spreading the love within from the heart so we all can
Feel it an go yes this is reality this is no tragedy we are
All nobodies and women of scars of reach far into the deep
Stars of just being simple folk that live life for the love of it all

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-MgRkSh5Xk

Some of you may have noticed I've been posting a little off lately, and some of you probably don't give a shit (rightly so). I've just been so f*cking mad, so angry at what feels like nothing. I'm just mad. Mad at the world. Mad at myself. Mad at others who try to get close to me.

I don't know why, but I don't want to be this way anymore. I don't have a proper outlet, and I feel like my back is against the ropes all the time. I feel so f*cking beaten, I feel so lost. I have nothing going for me, nothing to be optimistic about except being alive.

I'm at a war with myself, and I'm losing. Everything is turning on me. I don't like it. I don't want it. I just want it all to stop.

Rager  Wrote:

Some of you may have noticed I've been posting a little off lately, and some of you probably don't give a shit (rightly so). I've just been so f*cking mad, so angry at what feels like nothing. I'm just mad. Mad at the world. Mad at myself. Mad at others who try to get close to me.

I don't know why, but I don't want to be this way anymore. I don't have a proper outlet, and I feel like my back is against the ropes all the time. I feel so f*cking beaten, I feel so lost. I have nothing going for me, nothing to be optimistic about except being alive.

I'm at a war with myself, and I'm losing. Everything is turning on me. I don't like it. I don't want it. I just want it all to stop.

I felt this way once. I had a good job lots of money, but no happiness.. I found that going hiking, actually just spending time in nature helped to make me feel better. But the biggest and hardest thing was learning to love myself and others. Come to peace with yourself, and happiness will follow. I hope that helps.