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**Mother Mary**

Jalira Wrote:

You all probably know about that thread at TOP about the archons and the deep net. If not I would suggest reading it. Well between that and personally nosing around the Internet, I am starting to believe. My personal experiences and thoughts validate this lately.

At first I thought it was interesting and funny. I figured it would be cool but would I really ever want to leave the matrix? I love my doggy and drinking red wine, etc. Something about realizing everyone around you was simply a program made me sad, "no way" I thought.

Well I have been learning more and monitoring my thoughts, feelings, reactions and the reactions of others. Well it's pretty freaky when "programmed" thoughts happen. Or when you are feeling good and happy and the people in your life start doing or saying things to bring you back down. Or when out of nowhere you are doing something you had no intention of doing.

When you start to notice all this and control your thoughts better, it seems the programmed thoughts and happenings ramp up and get meaner, self doubt, aloofness, helplessness.

Part of me still thinks it's crazy, but all that sadness of being truly alone has gone away. I am ready to leave the matrix and everything in it I love.

Just wanted to see if there is anyone here feeling the same or noticing these strangenesses...

Last night I found myself asking this question... Where did that negative thought come from?

People want to say that we control our thoughts. But what about when you are just sitting there and some wacked out negative thought comes to your mind. "I" certainly didn't conjure up the thought. Not in the sense of thinking along the lines of something and then the thought comes along. I could be thinking about sunshine and sunflowers in a field and suddenly have a totally, non positive thought come crashing into my head. Where did it come from?

**LoP Guest** lop guest User ID: 40036 04-19-2012 11:12 PM

I tend to think like a gamer so I think of it more like a simulation for entertainment. Like in an RPG, you have the Player Character and the Non-Player Characters. In our "real world" simulation, do you ever feel like you run into NPC's? I do sometimes. Almost like they exist only to spout off the four phrases needed to interact with you for that once-in-a-lifetime. Then you have more complex NPCs, who are complex. Then there are the 'other' Player Characters, if any.

Would you know it if you were an NPC just carrying out a program until a Player Character interacts with you? Would you know it if you were a Player Character?

All games tend to have 'events' as well, which direct the script. Do some events feel scripted to you? Like it was meant to influence the path of your life specifically.

Games tend to have periods of warming up, exploration, story, and climax event. When I play an RPG I tend to hang out in the exploration/story phase and just sort of check things out in the game, really get used to it before digging into the story.

If my life is a simulation game then I'm in the exploration/story phase while wading into the story phase I think.

**Jalira**

Yes mother Mary! Like all of a sudden, out of nowhere I'll think something like "what a f*cking retard" or more horrible things. Sometimes even visuals, it doesn't make sense and didn't come from ME.

One time I was cooking with my mother and I got a visual of me stabbing her! It freaked me out, we were having a good time and I certainly wouldn't want to hurt her. I never told anyone but I know it had to be part of the matrix. I wonder if some of these people that kill people out of nowhere are just susceptible moreso than the rest(if any of that stuff is even real)

**Jalira**

Everyone in my life is an NPC that's why I'm so tired of the matrix, it's boring and predictable

**ZeroToad** · (This post was last modified: 04-19-2012 11:36 PM by ZeroToad.)

Jalira Wrote:

I totally agree 44595. I push back when pushed usually.

Zero toad I am alone and I can leave and it's all good

Tis impossible to be Alone when you exist solely WITHIN God for an eternity. Hugs

Tis impossible to leave, since there's no where to go and no way for you to dew it. chuckle

But you need to realize, there is no Y0U! Your Soul is all that is real and it is connected to the Matrix, kNot your human shell. :thumbup

Ribbit

**Mother Mary**

Jalira Wrote:

Yes mother Mary! Like all of a sudden, out of nowhere I'll think something like "what a f*cking retard" or more horrible things. Sometimes even visuals, it doesn't make sense and didn't come from ME.

One time I was cooking with my mother and I got a visual of me stabbing her! It freaked me out, we were having a good time and I certainly wouldn't want to hurt her. I never told anyone but I know it had to be part of the matrix. I wonder if some of these people that kill people out of nowhere are just susceptible moreso than the rest(if any of that stuff is even real)

And then it effects me emotionally. The above example you posted about your mother is exactly what I am talking about. The only way possible for me to to not "think" is to listen to music.

Let me put this this way. Your new here, but I've been around for some time here and on top. 99.9% of people tell me that they can feel what a warm and loving soul I am. Except one person. My husband. He says I am negative and angry. So, I'm confused about that a lot! How is that everyone else who has met me pretty much gets a long with me and sees me as that warm and loving person? I've had people who don't get along with my friends and they still like me. Even if I believe my friend is right and and I say so.

So why does my husband push my buttons and no one else does? Is he programmed to do so?

The matrix runs deep. Although if they came to me with a red pill I'd take it in a heartbeat.

**ZeroToad**

Jalira Wrote:

Everyone in my life is an NPC that's why I'm so tired of the matrix, it's boring and predictable

It's only boring and predictable because you are boring and predictable. Blink

Shake it up! Nsojsjkf

Ribbit

**Sherlock** lop guest User ID: 91293 04-20-2012 12:04 AM

Jalira - you are doing brilliantly fighting the programming - it has been turned up to 11 recently.

It comes from all around, the TV, the internet, printed media, the digital signals etc etc and can be very disrupting - as long as you can recognise and isolate the rogue thoughts that attempt to throw you from the path.

You know your path, don't derivate from it whatever thoughts occur to you, however difficult it may be

**LoP Guest** lop guest User ID: 90143 04-20-2012 12:06 AM

Sherlock Wrote:

Jalira - you are doing brilliantly fighting the programming - it has been turned up to 11 recently.

It comes from all around, the TV, the internet, printed media, the digital signals etc etc and can be very disrupting - as long as you can recognise and isolate the rogue thoughts that attempt to throw you from the path.

You know your path, don't derivate from it whatever thoughts occur to you, however difficult it may be

**............** · **............** INFP User ID: 27152 04-20-2012 12:07 AM **Posts: 15,734**

Jalira Wrote:

You all probably know about that thread at TOP about the archons and the deep net. If not I would suggest reading it. Well between that and personally nosing around the Internet, I am starting to believe. My personal experiences and thoughts validate this lately.

At first I thought it was interesting and funny. I figured it would be cool but would I really ever want to leave the matrix? I love my doggy and drinking red wine, etc. Something about realizing everyone around you was simply a program made me sad, "no way" I thought.

Well I have been learning more and monitoring my thoughts, feelings, reactions and the reactions of others. Well it's pretty freaky when "programmed" thoughts happen. Or when you are feeling good and happy and the people in your life start doing or saying things to bring you back down. Or when out of nowhere you are doing something you had no intention of doing.

When you start to notice all this and control your thoughts better, it seems the programmed thoughts and happenings ramp up and get meaner, self doubt, aloofness, helplessness.

Part of me still thinks it's crazy, but all that sadness of being truly alone has gone away. I am ready to leave the matrix and everything in it I love.

Just wanted to see if there is anyone here feeling the same or noticing these strangenesses...

Wait until you can actually see the matrix codes forever flowing in the background....

**LoP Guest** lop guest User ID: 90143 04-20-2012 12:08 AM

absurdious Wrote:

Jalira Wrote:
You all probably know about that thread at TOP about the archons and the deep net. If not I would suggest reading it. Well between that and personally nosing around the Internet, I am starting to believe. My personal experiences and thoughts validate this lately.

At first I thought it was interesting and funny. I figured it would be cool but would I really ever want to leave the matrix? I love my doggy and drinking red wine, etc. Something about realizing everyone around you was simply a program made me sad, "no way" I thought.

Well I have been learning more and monitoring my thoughts, feelings, reactions and the reactions of others. Well it's pretty freaky when "programmed" thoughts happen. Or when you are feeling good and happy and the people in your life start doing or saying things to bring you back down. Or when out of nowhere you are doing something you had no intention of doing.

When you start to notice all this and control your thoughts better, it seems the programmed thoughts and happenings ramp up and get meaner, self doubt, aloofness, helplessness.

Part of me still thinks it's crazy, but all that sadness of being truly alone has gone away. I am ready to leave the matrix and everything in it I love.

Just wanted to see if there is anyone here feeling the same or noticing these strangenesses...

Wait until you can actually see the matrix codes forever flowing in the background....

**ASA**

WalkersEverywhere Wrote:

LoP Guest Wrote:
I like turtles.

Good, because it's turtles all the way down.

I know it's long, but listen to this OP, and it will change your world:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qxcuonzcfzo

Another cool talk. Had to reply so as to find it later. Thanks.

**LoP Guest** lop guest User ID: 44595 04-20-2012 12:35 AM

Jalira Wrote:

I heard when you die to NOT go to the light, that it's the reincarnation trap. I guess I will find out someday. Interesting thought, you buck the matrix, it kills you and then recycles you so you have to start from scratch figuring the lie out all over again

I had posted in another thread how GWB drove past my place out here in the sticks after I had been connecting up to his energy, and also how I had nearly been drawn into the Twin Towers on 9/11, but was warned off by dreams.

Being a traveler I’ve had many instances where I was drawn to places to meet people, and I’ve had many very unusual experiences because of following intuitions.

I’m not sure you could explain such things as “going into the light” so simply. I had a near death experience around the age of 4, and there was no bright light involved, in fact I just went to a nice quite place by myself, with no Gods or relatives to greet me.

With many years of developing awareness I have become more aware when souls are connected to me, especially ones that have passed on. I did discover that this woman who had passed, who had been a psychic teacher of mine, was trying to manipulate me to come back into this reality as a child of mine. She would “push” me towards relationships, and even manipulate my decisions about contraceptive.

When a “voice” pops up in my mind I don’t just apply social beliefs to the voice, I do a discovery as to the source.

So much about this reality are exercises in creation, it makes me wonder why. I don’t completely discount Gods because of this, because a well learned soul might just learn how to form their own reality, and with enough soul connections, there would be plenty of souls to populate said reality. This being said, I, and other similar souls, might just be drawn to this reality for a reason.

**Sherlock** lop guest User ID: 91293 04-20-2012 12:46 AM

LoP Guest Wrote:

Jalira Wrote:
I heard when you die to NOT go to the light, that it's the reincarnation trap. I guess I will find out someday. Interesting thought, you buck the matrix, it kills you and then recycles you so you have to start from scratch figuring the lie out all over again

I had posted in another thread how GWB drove past my place out here in the sticks after I had been connecting up to his energy, and also how I had nearly been drawn into the Twin Towers on 9/11, but was warned off by dreams.

Being a traveler I’ve had many instances where I was drawn to places to meet people, and I’ve had many very unusual experiences because of following intuitions.

I’m not sure you could explain such things as “going into the light” so simply. I had a near death experience around the age of 4, and there was no bright light involved, in fact I just went to a nice quite place by myself, with no Gods or relatives to greet me.

With many years of developing awareness I have become more aware when souls are connected to me, especially ones that have passed on. I did discover that this woman who had passed, who had been a psychic teacher of mine, was trying to manipulate me to come back into this reality as a child of mine. She would “push” me towards relationships, and even manipulate my decisions about contraceptive.

When a “voice” pops up in my mind I don’t just apply social beliefs to the voice, I do a discovery as to the source.

So much about this reality are exercises in creation, it makes me wonder why. I don’t completely discount Gods because of this, because a well learned soul might just learn how to form their own reality, and with enough soul connections, there would be plenty of souls to populate said reality. This being said, I, and other similar souls, might just be drawn to this reality for a reason.

It comes from the external interferrence......., you can't escape it while awake

The rest of your post sounds very Celestine Prophecy

**Jalira**

Sorry for the absence everyone, I had to drive my rig back to to IE and was so tired once home I figured I better not type LOL.

Plus someone I called pissed me off and I embraced the anger for awhile. Then I remembered it was just the matrix getting loosh or whatever, so I slammed a bunch more out for it. Can you overload the archons like you can an energy vampire? Somehow I doubt it.

These are very nice replies I will go over them again right now, wouldn't it be cool to see the matrix codes? Wow I will try to, probably takes practice.
I wish there was a way to make traffic less, kept trying today, thinking "matrix I'm so totally ready to be working now!"

It didn't work Hugs