Not sure really what is going on. I had a couple in my early 20's, one in my late 20's/early 30's, but I've had four in the six months.

What's odd and scary is not so much the panic attacks themselves, but what precedes them.
This feeling that my mind is slipping away. And then my paranoia at my arms not feeling right, my legs not feeling right, my heart beating too hard, nothing looking right, nothing outside of me feeling right, trigger that damned fight or flight response.

But what the hell am I suppose to fight? Myself?
What the hell am I suppose to flee from? Myself?

I guess once you go crazy you can never undo it. No matter how much you try to return to normal
Sooner or later I fear, I won't be coming back.

Not sure really what is going on. I had a couple in my early 20's, one in my late 20's/early 30's, but I've had four in the six months.

What's odd and scary is not so much the panic attacks themselves, but what precedes them.
This feeling that my mind is slipping away. And then my paranoia at my arms not feeling right, my legs not feeling right, my heart beating too hard, nothing looking right, nothing outside of me feeling right, trigger that damned fight or flight response.

But what the hell am I suppose to fight? Myself?
What the hell am I suppose to flee from? Myself?

I guess once you go crazy you can never undo it. No matter how much you try to return to normal
Sooner or later I fear, I won't be coming back.

indigowiz  Wrote:

Panic attacks are initiations, when break through can occur.

You have to sit down in meditation and follow that fear through every blind alley, u turn and convoluted logic until you come face to face with your own death.

Look at it without fear or attraction take the middle path and dissolve it in the flame above your head.

I'm trying to do that. I really am. My own death doesn't scare me, losing my mind while still living does. How does one face the fact they maybe losing their mind and conquer that fear? That's my dilemma.

absurdious  Wrote:

Not sure really what is going on. I had a couple in my early 20's, one in my late 20's/early 30's, but I've had four in the six months.

What's odd and scary is not so much the panic attacks themselves, but what precedes them.
This feeling that my mind is slipping away. And then my paranoia at my arms not feeling right, my legs not feeling right, my heart beating too hard, nothing looking right, nothing outside of me feeling right, trigger that damned fight or flight response.

But what the hell am I suppose to fight? Myself?
What the hell am I suppose to flee from? Myself?

I guess once you go crazy you can never undo it. No matter how much you try to return to normal
Sooner or later I fear, I won't be coming back.

Panic attacks are related to and the precursor of angina/heart attacks...the only reason they are panic attacks and not angina/heart attacks is they don't produce the OBSERVABLE chemical changes in the blood...(BTW, an angina attack is a heart attack that stopped)...I don't know anyone who had panic attacks who did NOT end up having a heart attack...IOW, get your heart checked out...

Turns out I've had a chronic infection in my sinus/ear/throat that was causing pressure on my brain which was leading to the panic attacks and the "offs".

Began taking some heavy anti-biotics and am beginning to feel much better, still not 100% but I'm getting there.

As a child I lived in a house with two parents who smoked heavily and always had ear infections and strep throat, even strep-tonsilitis at one point.

So that history combined with four years of heavy joint smoking apparently inflamed the shit out of everything.

Hopefully I'll be back to posting more frequently sometime soon.

A big thanks to those who PM'ed me and gave me words of encouragement.

Turns out I've had a chronic infection in my sinus/ear/throat that was causing pressure on my brain which was leading to the panic attacks and the "offs".

Began taking some heavy anti-biotics and am beginning to feel much better, still not 100% but I'm getting there.

As a child I lived in a house with two parents who smoked heavily and always had ear infections and strep throat, even strep-tonsilitis at one point.

So that history combined with four years of heavy joint smoking apparently inflamed the shit out of everything.

Hopefully I'll be back to posting more frequently sometime soon.

A big thanks to those who PM'ed me and gave me words of encouragement.

try to cut down the amount of electro magnetic waves, radio waves and micro waves you are being exposed to. I dont know how you are going to do that. If you look, you will find areas that have dead spots due to vegetation and topography, spend a few day there and see how you feel.

Go have a full physical exam but dont tell your doctor about the attacks unless you think you can no longer handle them, just to be sure you dont have an underlying physiological problem you need to work on.

Good luck and might you find some solace.

Turns out I've had a chronic infection in my sinus/ear/throat that was causing pressure on my brain which was leading to the panic attacks and the "offs".

Began taking some heavy anti-biotics and am beginning to feel much better, still not 100% but I'm getting there.

As a child I lived in a house with two parents who smoked heavily and always had ear infections and strep throat, even strep-tonsilitis at one point.

So that history combined with four years of heavy joint smoking apparently inflamed the shit out of everything.

Hopefully I'll be back to posting more frequently sometime soon.

A big thanks to those who PM'ed me and gave me words of encouragement.